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November 23rd, 2007

12:09 am:

Once upon a time at a nightmarket in Taipei, a fortune teller said I would meet the love of my life in 2009. 

She showed me a tarot card depicting a rat stuck in a hollowed horn and said:

"You see? It will be a perfect fit."
 



April 28th, 2004

01:33 am: it's been a while.

 



My apartment overlooks a forgotten lot encased between two lonely brownstones. It's the desolate remains of a garden that must have been pretty at one point or another, but over time became subject to neglect and decay. The overgrown weeds tickle the dusty, gray porcelain of dried up water fountains and one can barely distinguish the flat paneled stones that putter their way through the ambling brush. The garden gnomes must be growing restless.

Last night I fed on sugary concoctions at Chase's place on 6th, a smallish apartment with impossibly lofty ceilings plucked from the pages of an Ikea catalog. Oh, how I adore those crafty Swedes and their impossible-to-pronounce names. We choked down one sticky confection after another, washing the blissful ooze down with enough milk to make even the most lactose-tolerant individual queasy.

I remembered mid-sugar-induced-high that I used to post these long, rambling rants about all that had gone wrong in my life and on a good day, mused over the small delights that had made it all worthwhile. I brought this up with Chase, who laughed the coarse, sexy, carcinogenic laugh of a seasoned smoker, and upon regaining her breath, gently chided me for this foolish reminiscence and reminded me that I did not know how to spell.

And then I remembered that I had never achieved a comprehensive understanding of the semicolon and all the proper ways to apply a hyphenate and immediately grew very discouraged.

But: then I thought--oh, what--the hell:?

 



Current Music: Radiohead- Kid A

July 31st, 2001

06:47 pm: trash


I haven't cleaned the insides of my desk drawers during the past three years. 

I am a pack rat, so you can imagine how many "lovely" surprises I found waiting for me all this time. 
7 unfinished journals, pictures dating back to the early 90s, school papers, junk mail, old letters from friends, used pens, and lots of dust. 

Some of the memories that are associated with these items were good, others bittersweet.
Coming across pictures and letters from him was like reopening a stitched scar.
I also found many letters and notes I had written to him*, but never finished, or just never had the time or courage to mail. 

Forgotten memories shoved into a corner of my bottom drawer and just waiting to be rediscovered. The flood of images and words were organized into separate folders, each a visual/textual documented portion of my little life. 

I found them today, and sorted through them, one by one. 

Now on file, some in storage, others in the trash. 

*(Ed. Note: Actually there were many different addressees. However for the purposes of this entry it seemed more effective if the reader was allowed to imagine one would-be recipient as opposed to many, thereby eliminating the risk of making this author appear somehow sad or pathetic, and more like the nostalgic, wistful self portrait she was quite amateurishly attempting to paint. In a way, the author feels this was a progressive, bold narrative decision, pre-dating even the biggest "fact-manipulator" of them all, Mr, James Frey)




Current Mood: clean
Current Music: Fiona Apple- Slow like honey
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